Friday, March 02, 2012

I'm doing the "Retreat in Daily Life" where, among other things, we linger over a portion of scripture a day. This scripture was Luke 5:1-11 where Jesus asks Peter to go back out fishing with Him after a night of catching nothing. I've never really "gotten" this scripture before so I decided to do an Ignatian exercise with it where you put yourself in the story as one of the characters. I decided to be Peter. Here's what I wrote:
There's that man again, standing on the shore. Whenever he shows up, people flock to him - he's probably a religious fanatic who is scamming the people out of their money. I better steer clear of him! Don't want to get involved or I might just have to punch his lights out! Shysters like that make me furious . . .

So while I'm minding my own business, off cleaning my nets after a long, hard nights work which only produced an old boot and some other useless garbage but no fish, I come back and this guy is actually sitting in my boat! Then he asks me if I'll row him out for a little fishing expedition! The nerve . . .not sure why i'm going to humor him but why not? This could be my opportunity to put him in his place . . .

Next thing I know, the fish are actually jumping INTO my net! I can hardly believe my eyes. An hour ago, I would have sworn there was not a fish to be found in all of this lake and now my boat is sinking, it has so many. I even had to call my partners to row out because my boat couldn't contain all the fish we caught, er, that jumped in my boat. Clearly this is a supernatural act . . . Then it dawns on me, this "holy man" in my boat, he must really BE a true holy man.

I fall to my knees before him. . . I'm overwhelmed by how I judged him as a fake . . . I'm not even sure who he is,  but he is the real deal, that's for sure. Then I speak. " Teacher . . .Master, forgive me. I am not worthy to even be in this boat with You. Compared to You, I am the scum of the earth."

His reply surprises me.  "No worries! You think we caught a lot of fish just now? I have bigger fish for you to fry than this! Stick with me and soon you'll be catching souls, not fish!"

This man is more than I expected, and consequently, I did the unexpected . . .I left my boats, my nets, even the fish right there on the beach and followed Him. I had to find out more about this man. . . .His name is Jesus.

Okay, now I see. Seeing through Peter's eyes helps me see through new eyes how You impacted people and especially this one rash macho man. I want to be impacted by You in such a rash way - to leave all that I think brings me life and follow You Jesus, to put You absolutely first in my life. Thank You for the invitation to do so. You've chosen me as one of Your own, just like You chose Peter.... so I can impact others for You, what a privilege!

1 comment:

August Thurmer said...

Thanks Deitra~ I like your words placing today's man in Peter. It makes it very relevant and alive for me. August