Wednesday, July 18, 2007
I highly recommend When the Heart Waits by Sue Monk Kidd (Secret Life of Bees) It is helping me see that during this season of waiting there is a lot
the Lord is wanting to transform in me.
I'm seeing so much of my security is wrapped up in external,
temporary things (like having a job) that I'm not really trusting God and
thus I'm anxious. I never have considered myself a worrier, I've just
never been one! But now I'm starting to see some of my real self and that God
has me in a growth season to transform this in me. That excites me even
though it is painful. But there is something about pain with a purpose
that makes it so worthwhile and easier to embrace somehow.
Anyway I'm excited to see that God has something good for me during this
season of "active waiting".
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Ok this is sort of weird but I was just reviewing my other blog (http://ears-wide-open.blogspot.com/) [which is where I am posting the book I've written]. It has been a while since I've blogged there so as I was getting ready to add another post from my book, I read the last entry and I thought, "This is EXACTLY what I am going through now . . . again!" Even though I've know that, I didn't know how similar the feelings are now to what they were then in 1994. Guess that is why I journal, because I'm not that good at remembering exactly how I felt.
Here's what caught my eye: "Over the last few months, I feel like You (God) have pulled out many of my props, those “things” I trusted in to see us through. I know you want me to trust in You alone, not in our circumstances, believing that Your unfailing love will not forsake me or my household. Thank you for the lessons I am learning through all this. Replace my fear with trust in Your unfailing love. No matter what happens, I pray I will be able to praise You.
Waiting on God, especially when He is silent, can be a very tough experience and yet, it can be a very rewarding time as well. To learn to trust Him we have to have those times when nothing seems to be happening. That is when we learn to exercise our faith. “Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things unseen.” Hebrews 11:1
Share your fears with God, fear of things that might happen or that might not happen. Then ask Him to show you that He is sufficient, no matter what."
So my own book is ministering to me all over again. I love that! I hope some of you will journey over to that blog and maybe something you read will minister to where you are as well. Let me know if it does by leaving a comment. Thanks.